Reckon – a story

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So here is a new story, a very RAW story in the literal sense. It was just completed today and I haven’t cleaned it up so it’s raw.
This story is a follow up to a story in RED DREAMS but should play well if you haven’t read that one.
What it is, is dark.
And I hope you dig it.

Reckon
The great tent creaked beneath the weight of the wind as it threw itself against the canvas walls. While it still wasn’t snowing yet the Winter winds clawed at the earth and the small houses and barns in the distance and howled away down the hills. The preacher kneels in the center of the tent muttering to himself and shaking his head back and forth.
“Where are you, where are you, where are you?”
Nothing answers his pleas save for the wind but even that begins to die down, leaving the chill to settle in on the lonely tent. The preacher looks up from the ground and around him where lay the bodies of five children, none moving and each covered in blood. The preacher looks down at his hands and balls them into fists.
“What more do you want? What more do you want from me? Isn’t this enough? ISN’T THIS ENOUGH?” Screaming and the wind picks up again as if mocking him and the tent pulls against its stakes. The preacher stands and looks at the wreckage that surrounds him, the bodies, the blood, the symbols, and in the corner a chair and all around him darkness. So much darkness. So many questions.
Where was he?
Where was he?
They had had a bargain, a deal, and now, now he breaks it?
Now?
The night before his big sermon?
The night before everything would change?
He looked at the children and frowned. Perhaps he had done the ritual wrong. Had done something in the wrong order. He had never tried to summon him before but he had never needed to. He had always come when called, serving his master without question but it was three months since he had appeared, three months where the man had had to lie, and fake the rituals to cleanse other children, resorting to the way he had cleansed his young cousin when they were children. He had done what he thought he had to to call the thing to him, to lure it here and into his service again but it didn’t even come for its own rituals. Something was wrong and the preacher knew it in the pit of his stomach. It was getting cold in the tent, too cold to be without a coat and hat but just as he was thinking of how he would fix things, how he could cure the three afflicted children of this town in the morning without any help and still collect the donations he thought he saw movement in the corner of the tent, by the chair. He squinted his eyes and saw nothing, though the light of the lanterns didn’t do much to illuminate that corner. As he was looking he thought he caught sight of something and leaned closer and when he did he saw his cousin, thin and drawn and covered in blood as she chewed on her hands greedily and as he watched she erupted in flames and from those flames she looked up at him and smiled.
The man moaned and clutched at himself as he rocked back on his heels. The blood on his hands was still warm and it was that warmth that shook him from his stupor. He let out a startled cry and stumbled backward away from the bodies on the floor, gasping for air as he did. He looked at the scene with new eyes, new horror and was still for a moment and his breath escaped from his mouth in small plumes. He took a step forward, then another, then another and was taken back twenty years to his childhood when he was still a child of the Lord, still raw but full of so much fire for His work. He was taken back to a similar time and a similar place – a barn in the winter and a young woman stricken by the work of Lucifer. He paused and remembered the screams, the blood, the fire and threw his hands against his face to push it all away.
That had been when he had truly met the enemy.
Had met it and, and, and…
He let out a moan and stumbled forward, pulling his hands from his face but as soon as he did he saw horror which he couldn’t have imagined and let out a howl. Standing mere feet before him were three of the children, all of them still, none of them with any signs of breath coming from them, and each revealing the terrible wounds made upon them as if revealing their sex to a lover. The scent of the blood hung in the cold air and steam rose from the gaping wounds on the young bodies, forcing the man back several steps. His mind was spinning and without knowing it he began speaking a prayer. One of the children leaned towards another and licked blood from her shoulder and smiled. The third of them reach inside the hole in its stomach and began pulling its innards out, fishing them out slowly until there was nothing left, then it licked its fingers clean.
“No, no, no, no, no, no…”
The man began shaking and sweating at once, the sweat running icy fingers down his sides and along the curves of his stomach.

”You have grown fat off of the blood of lambs, no? For a man of God it was far to easy to bring you low. And now that you’re here with me, in this cold, dead place, a hundred miles of anything but cows and shit, tell me, don’t you yearn for the flames I bring you? Don’t you crave them just a little?”
The voice from behind him, the low whisper he had come to know well over the years but it seemed different than it had in the past. The preacher stood wavering, head throbbing with his heartbeat and he surveyed what was before him – three children, two girls and one boy standing before him. Three children, which meant the other two, the twins… He felt heat from behind him and the shadow of bodies close by.
“Figuring it out now, eh? Finally? You bore me, preacher. You were fun when you were young and full of your own fire. You were fun when you actually gave a fuck but now, now you’re too old, too fat, and have less life in you than these lambs you slaughtered for me. And what would your God say to this mess you’ve made? What would It say to this blasphemy, eh, preacher?”

The man felt his face flush, though from anger or shame he would never dare to ask, but with that heat his old fire rose.
“Question me not, demon. I do the Lord’s work and his work alone. I saved these children from your sin. From your evil. I cleansed them, foul thing, as I shall now cleanse you…”
The preacher spun to face the demon, no longer afraid but that fear flooded back as he realized the horror he had made a pact with. Before him stood the twins, the Kernwyck’s, Francis and Nathan, the oldest of the children here at nineteen. They had become lazy and had grown tongues too long for their mouths, tongues that carried curse words and deception and their parents had felt it was the devil that had gotten into their heads and had been the ones to request the preacher come here. And oh, he had come, he had come almost at a run once he learned that this was a town near a gold deposit and that this town was so desperate to have the evil amongst them gone that they would donate whatever it took to have him cleanse them. He had come and what he had found was a town with too much money, and too little to do. They were located in a valley near a lake and nothing else. No towns. No travel routes. Nothing. They were going to build the town up, in time, but now, now it was a wasteland for the youth and so naturally the youth did what they do when bored and that was to get up to deviltry. So, seeing what was needed, the preacher did what he had been doing for these long years and that was to call upon someone else with expertise in deviltry to aid him in his cleansing. It had worked before, he would call the thing, it would come, it would take one, two children to the flames and the preacher would save the rest and leave town with its gratitude and its money. Clearly the thing had tired of the arrangement though and this, this was like nothing the preacher had ever seen, not even in the worst of his nightmares.
Before him stood the twins, eyes gone, clearly gouged out, though Nathan still had the remnants of one blue eye smeared along his cheek. Their cheeks had been torn open to reveal their teeth. Both were naked and clean of blood until you got to their groins, which had been torn free and from there down was thick, black blood. The preacher looked up and both boys were smiling, Francis chewing something loudly. The preacher felt his gorge rise and stepped back but as he did he felt a body behind him and turned to see the other three children had surrounded him.
“No. NO! Jesus no! We had a deal. We had a deal! What more do you want? What more do you want of me?”
“Oh but yes, preacher, yes, yes, yes. You have drank to well and too long in these crimson rivers and now it’s come time for a reckoning. Now is time to pay. And a day will come when you shall answer to us, oh yes, but now, now it’s time you answered to them!” All of the children raise their arms and pointed toward the door to the tent. The preacher turned and standing in the entrance were scores of people from the town.

“Oh God no…” Whispered the preacher.
A scream rang out from the night and Mrs. Kerwyck fainted. The preacher came out of his stupor and realized the children were lying at his feet, in a circle, and he was at the center of them, covered in their blood, the knife he’d used earlier sticking from his pocket. And there was silence in that tent and the wind died as if to listen to what would happen next. The silence lasted a minute before Mr. Kerwyck pushed himself to the front of the people and raised his lantern.
“Burn him. Burn it all. Burn it all down!” Saying this the man threw his lantern at the preacher and struck him in the legs. The lantern shattered and fire erupted along the preacher’s legs and along the straw on the ground.
The preacher looked at the people, his people, his flock, and was silent as more lanterns were thrown in around him and the tent and its contents caught fire. The man was gone, lost, surrounded in the flames by all the children he had saved, whose souls were in Heaven as he had sent their bodies to Hell, surrounded by them as they came closer with the flames.
And this was Hell.
This was Hell, alone and surrounded by your failures, alone and surrounded by yourself.
This was Hell.
This was Hell and the preacher bent his head and prayed.

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RED DREAMS

RED DREAMS Book Release Party

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If there is something you should do when you are able to release a book it’s have a book release of some sort. For Red Dreams I wanted to celebrate with friends and family so I had people come over to where I live and we invaded my friend and neighbor’s apartment for some delicious food and cookies and a lot of talk. It is a real honor to be able to celebrate the release of a new book with people I love. Now comes the work of getting the book out to the world at large but hopefully that will be just as rewarding and just as fun.

Want to see what the hub-bub was about? Read more about RED DREAMS

Prefer something with a little more whimsy? Try THE MEEP SHEEP

Red Dreams Sampler

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Here are a couple small samples from my latest book Red Dreams.

A Taste For Angels

It was finally dark.

The air was heavy with thick waves of heat and sweat that made it feel like he was in a room full of animals that were hiding but there.

It was hard to breathe. Hard to think. Hard to sleep. Hard to do anything but wait.

Wait.

So wait he did.

But then the air changed. The room changed.

He suddenly knew he wasn’t alone anymore.

He knew he wasn’t alone and he smiled in the darkness.

He knew and he was ready.

“Ahhh, and what do we have here sister – a boy? A little boy awake at this hour? Oh for shame, for shame…”

“Ohhh, a boy is it, sister? Oh, yes, yes, a boy, very good then, very good but a shame indeed. Such a shame. Perhaps he needs to be punished for his disobedience.”

“Ah, punished indeed sister; perhaps that is what he needs. A lesson to teach him some manners, eh? Yes, yes, perhaps that is what he needs. So dear-love, what do you think? Do you think your old grannies should punish you? Do you think you deserve to be punished for being up past your curfew?”

“Yes-yes-yes, sister, and what would your parents say young child, eh? What would they say to your being up into the darkest hours of the clock?”

(Laughing dryly)

“Aye, what would they say indeed love?”

Silence.

Then the sound of two bodies shifting their weight from foot to foot at the end of his bed, waiting in the warmth of the room for an answer.

“Eh, nothing to say boy? Nothing to say to your grannies?”

“Ah sister, he’s being impudent is he? Isn’t he the bad one?”

“Yes dearie, yes indeed. Nothing to say to his grannies, and what does the little one have to say, eh?”

“Ah yes, the beaut with the blonde hair he’s got beside him there, what’s her name I wonder?”

“Hmm, can’t say I know love, maybe we should ask her…”

Another voice in the room, coming from the bed.

“Her name is Charlotte, you need know no more than that.”

It’s the End of the World and All They Gave Me Was a Lousy Mug

We should have seen it coming, really.

I mean, hell, we all watch the movies, have the soundtracks, rented the video games, bought the books, and saw the damned television shows about it so to say that none of us saw the end of the world coming, well, that’s just a damned lie.

If there is one thing humans should know about it’s the end of the world.

Hell, most religions are obsessed with it and those that aren’t don’t make any money, if you get what I am saying. Those that do preach about it are always kinda waiting for the end to come like a kid waiting for presents on Christmas.

Well, after all that preachin’ and doomin’ and gloomin’ it’s Armageddon time and the hell of it is, no one wants to open our Deathday gift.

Well, fuck it, it’s here and so am I so let’s throw a party, peel back the paper, and see what we got.

Red Dreams is for sale for $10

Red Dreams

Red Dreams Is Here!

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Happy New Year everyone!

I am so very proud to announce the release of the new book Red Dreams. This is my fourth book and is another dark short story collection. The book is over two hundred pages and features fifteen stories and will be sure to give you some sleepless nights. The book is ten dollars with an e-book to come.

So come, friends, let’s share some Red Dreams.

The Insides of Red Dreams

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Here’s a taste of what to expect in Red Dreams when it hits on January first. The book will be $10 and will be awesome personified.

Index~

A Taste for Angels

Guerilla Art

Invocation

The Fear of Clowns

Marvin the Mold

We Bury Our Own

My Anthem is Your Name

Little Sister

It’s the End of the World and All They Gave Me Was This Lousy Mug

The Third Horseman

Where the Fire Began

From Distant Temples

Gee Willikers and the Haunted Penis

Forgive

Remains

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What Wasn’t Used…

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When you start out with any sort of project you have a million ideas, a thousand plans, a hundred notions, and about a half dozen things that come through and Red Dreams follows that track completely.

As usual I went through a few ideas on the name but this time around Red Dreams really stuck with me. I liked the way it evokes a type of dreaming, and seems to pull together the notion of being haunted in your dreams. I think we all have the dreams that are not just bad but are literally haunted, where we are followed by the things that chase us, our fears real and imagined. With the name came the idea for the cover, which was to show a bloody hand clutching some bedsheets. I have been drawing the covers for my books and chapbooks and ‘zines since I began this crazy journey and stepping out of my comfort zone was important to me. I love drawing the covers but I really wanted to try something different. With the cover I wanted to convey the throes of terror you have in the Red Dreams and what it is like to have them follow you out, into the real world. For a moment, for a second you think that you are surrounded by all the monsters of the world and that everyone you love is dead. For that moment you are alone. That is the cover I wanted. I sketched out the initial ideas and tried a few times to solidify it but was too worried that my lack of conventional drawing skills would limit the power of the cover and the cover HAS to pull you in. If the cover doesn’t work then the people don’t move past that. So the cover has to work. Which is why I went with the photo. It’s my sincere hope that the cover works. I love it. I love it to pieces. The rest, the rest is all the frosting that I have to get working on – the promo work and all that. But the book, the book, as sudden as it came together there was a plan. There is always a plan. And the plans will be revealed, inch by inch by inch.

Next, well, next friends comes the release, but before that, some teases.

Today comes the other art. The photos that were not used. Amanda was very, very patient with  me as I poured fake blood all over her hand and posed her and took my shots. So here are the shots that were not used, one that was, and what we ended up with.

Red Dreams

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OK, here we go.

The new book is called Red Dreams and is a collection of dark stories similar to 2009′s This Beautiful Darkness. Generally newer work with a couple older pieces dusted off and thrown in there. Most of the works are freshened up. The book is 214 pages long and is a paperback and is built for travel. The book’s cover photo I did with the help of the lovely Amanda Emery, who allowed me to fake blood her hand up for the photo. The layout I did in MS Word ’07 thanks to a template CreateS pace has. It took a couple tries but i nailed it. Amanda went through and zazzed up the page numbers and made sure it all looked ok (though if there are issues then it’s all my fault as I am the one who went over the thing the closest). The cover concept had been floating around with the name for a bit now, but it changed from a drawing to a photo when I realized the art just wasn’t going to be able to come out as clean as I would have hoped. I liked the idea of changing things up as well and going to a photo cover for the first time. Marcus Bieth put the cover together for me when my first attempt was having some issues.

I love this cover.

It reminds me of an old paperback book. I dunno what other people will think – ahh, ghastly – or – ahh, lamely – but I like it quite a bit.

I need to get a press release together that I will send around locally and post after the first. I will have the book for sale on the January first, the same day I hope to have the Meep Sheep website up and live. Not sure on a price for the book. I wanna upgrade to the pro plan which lessens my cost so I can see what I want the price point to be. I think I know but wanna be sure.

Finally, wow, another book, so soon?

Yes. I have several hundred stories written and am constantly writing. I also have an unpublished novel (which I plan to have out in 2012). I will actually release another book in the Spring. Why? Because I can. I have the stories, the books are not that hard to put together, and I would rather die knowing I got out as much of my work as I was able and didn’t waste my time waiting for some magical publisher to come down from on high to grant me some sort of legitimacy.

I believe in this book, I believe in these stories, I believe in this process, I believe in you.

I may not sell a ton of books but each book I sell means the world to me because someone took a chance on me as an artist and writer. I put my heart into these things and I hope it shows.

Thanks for letting me keep doing it and keeping any interest you may have.

Thanks.

And Now I Shall Give You…RED DREAMS

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So here it is, the new book and the new cover. I edited it and layed it out myself first and then did the cover and…was told by wiser people that it needed some work. With the help of Amanda Emery and Marcus Bieth I was able to really nail this thing and really like how it came together. So happy. The book is another dark collection of stories and is 214 pages. I am still working out the price but will get all the details to you when I post the link for purchase. The book is getting approved so hopefully that will happen soon.

WOO!